So Ready

Sometimes it's hard for me to accept reality. I am very quick to acknowledge when I am having a hard time with it and I generally know what I need to do and do it. I am human and I waver back and forth over what I know I should do and I want to do. In the end my mind will win over my heart but it just sucks!

Next topic: I just want to find someone - not intimate - just someone who likes to hang out as much as I do and do the same things - is that too much to ask for? I don't know why I have this need lately but I do. I feel like when I want to go hang out on the grass or at the coffee shop and just chillax no one wants to. Why am I right here right now in my life? I don't know - just thinking out loud. In a weird mood today. I am a very social creature and sometimes I need to feed that side of me :(

Next topic: Did have a great evening! I went and rode my bike at Terry Hershey Park - wow! Recently I had only ridden Braes Bayou with my friend Forrest. It's nice and level - but TH Park is a whole new terrain for my unseasoned legs - I mean those little hills were little and my ding dong ass was almost at a standstill trying to get up them on my bike :( Give me a few months :)I will be ready to rock and roll! I'm ready for my legs to be back in shape the way they used to be and I am on my way :) As long as I don't fall out of routine I should be in good shape by the new year :) I am quite proud of myself as far as exercise and eating choices goes - I feel like I am totally in control of what I am eating and my exercise - I'm loving it!!! I love the feeling I have when I am done riding and getting in my car - such accomplishment!

Next Topic: Why is it that when I am happy for something in my life there are people who don't know how to be happy for me? I mean really? Just because people don't agree with me doesn't mean they can't be happy for me - right? It just sucks when I am all loud and proud about my new job and all someone can look at me and say is "oh, do you still have benefits?" Well, I do actually, I have the benefit of doing what makes me happy! That's my benefit - not the mention that half the damn country doesn't have benefits but I'm the retard? Anyhoo - just venting on that note.

Anyhoo! Nite Nite :)