My Energy

My energy is so much
Is sometimes in front of me
And I'm always trying
To catch up

My energy is immeasurable
When I sit still
It inflates me
It drives me forward

I aspire to it
To make it proud
My energy
To fulfill it's every desire

Me

I am me
My flesh
My heart
My soul
My wholeness at once

If one faction
One bit
Weren't there
Then it wouldn't be...
Me

Being Domestic :)

In the last few weeks, during my state of unemployment, I have been taking care of my grandparents. Taking care I mean, cooking, laundry, dishes, doctors appointments, insulin shots, grocery shopping, errands, etc. I have truly enjoyed it! I am a bit in a rut looking for a job, but being domestic with them truly makes me happy. I really enjoy the cooking! One of my passions is meal planning and cooking :) I love it!!!! My aunt has a maid that does all the stuff I loathe :) So it's cool that I get to do all the stuff I like. For instance, laundry...I love to do laundry. Dishes and grocery shopping, love them both. I know, I'm weird - haha! To say the least. I haven't really left the house in a couple of days and I actually don't mind it one bit. I think this season of unemployment might actually be good for me. Not that I can do it forever, in fact I hopefully won't do it for very long. My spirit needs to work! I am by no means a lazy person. I love to go, go, go and this downtime is really teaching me how to calm the heck down! Not that it's easy taking care of them, it's actually a very busy job. My time management is down pact! I even squeeze in some laying out time between lunch and laundry :)

Anyhoo, sometimes I don't realize that whatever it is that I find discouraging is actually building a different part of me that I don't normally exercise.

Good day!

The Moon

The moon is alive
Radiant and outstanding
Lighting the way of the night
Making the darkest moments so bright

Glistening in the sky
With nothing holding back
Making glory with all its tides
Taking a stand with all it's pride

The moon is epic
Alluring and drastic
Arousing to the soul
Without it nothing would be whole

The moon, there when it can't be seen
Still breathing and permeating inspiration

See...what i said :)

So yesterday we had to take my grandmother to the emergency room because we thought she was having a stroke. :( Don't worry! It's all good...turned out she was dehydrated which was making her tongue sluggish and getting stuck in her dentures which made her slur and her smile crooked..who'd thought? Anyway, my point in all this...

While we were laying in the hospital I was wondering if she feels like she had a full life...a fulfilling life. I know my grandma is very regretful just by some of the things she mentions frequently. And I thought "how sad". It makes me sad to think people end up old and regretful.

I don't ever want to be like. So far I'm not...I have yet to regret anything...of course, now that I published that statement I'm sure it will bite me in the ass LOL!

I love life. Every bit of it..the shittyness of it because it makes us who we are...the greatness of it because it amplifies our beauty. When I love I love 150%, including life. I pour my heart into everything and everyone. I get hurt a lot because of this but I learn to deal...

I try to tell people when I love them...my friends, my family, my lovers...I always want important people in my life to FEEL important. You can't say someone is important to you and then they have no clue. Then they are really not :(

People always tell me I should "play the game" with men...but I don't have it in me. If I want to call, I call. If I want to reply right way, then I do. I don't have time for games. Sorry world. What you see is what you get. It's me, in the flesh. No embellished facade. No hidden agenda. No nothing. I am always exposed and vulnerable to world. That's a chance I take and I don't mind. I'm not scared of the consequences because the good bits make up for it :)

Love you world!

Singing in the Shower

Okay - so I love, love, love to sing in the shower. I love to sing period. My favorite moments are when I am in the car and it is a picture perfect day and I can roll the windows down, blast my music and sing at the top of my lungs! There is just something that happens to me. I feel totally free and released...liberated...myself. I love it!

Goals Follow - Up

Okay - so goals aren't always easy but I have made some progress :) Out of four areas I have made progress on two. (which is better than none) My physical goal is moving right along: I wanted to lose 38 pounds this year and I have already lost 7 - yay! Which means I have lost over 40 pounds since last June - feels good to finally get back into clothes that I haven't worn in FIVE years - yes, count them, one, two, three, four, five! AND I am over 300 pages into a 1200 page book - yay! Goal is to read four books this year...

I love being able to measure progress. Okay, confession: something I learned in corporate america is to make measurable, attainable and time sensitive goals - and I still us that formula in my personal life. Something good did come out of corporate...haha!

So life is moving right along...even if I wasn't measuring my goals it would be moving anyway.

Love my life!

Anyhoo - hope everyone is keeping to their 2011 goals...love ya'll!

Scruffy

when will i see you again...
your mystique
gentle soul
pleasant to the eyes
and the ears

across from me
lanky and lean
yet fluid
and urbane

a dialogue with you
that was so smooth
inviting
fulfilling

i hope we meet again
soon
at table 3

Open

I am without guard
Without fear
Open and accepting
Excited and ambitious

Take it!
My heart

What is it?

What is it about life that is so awesome?! I wake up everyday excited, ready to go...hit the ground running. When it's a bad day I do get sad, but i try to find the positive in the situation and then instantly look forward to the positive. Does anyone else feel this way? I'm just always excited. Excited for everyone - when good things happen to others I am just as excited for them as I get for me.

Anyhoo--

Have a wonderful day world!

Over the Top Happy

The thing about myself that I like the most is that I can turn any situation into a positive. No matter how bad...