Divorce

Although I have been sitting in Panera Bread for three hours my production is through the roof!!! Yay!! I finally finished writing up my visitation schedule - woohoo!!! Now all I have to do is submit it tomorrow and my divorce should be final soon there after. Hot damn!!!

There are so many emotions that went through my mind the first time I filled out divorce paperwork. I remember feeling like a loser, like I couldn't keep my marriage together, like now I'm going to have to check "divorced" on paperwork, that I would be considered a single mom, that my son is now to going to go "back and forth", I sincerely felt STUPID and how did I pick the wrong one.

Then it went on to why did I stay so long, what the hell was I thinking putting up with this, why didn't I have more self respect, I wasted too much time, I should have left right after the marriage, who needs marriage anyway, why do I have to wait so long for this to be over and my favorite thought of all "they should make you each contribute $1000 at the time of marriage so the cost of the divorce is equally covered".

But what the heck right? Shit happens. Life happens. We make mistakes. We learn from them. We move on. And, hopefully we don't make the same one again. At least I got my beautiful, handsome, smart, funny, witty son out of the deal :)

Having said all that, my life is actually going great and my son and I are at a good place in life.