I can't take it anymore :( Corporate America kills me. It makes me sad to know that I am contributing to such a faction of society :( I want to do something worth while - that makes me feel good about myslef. So when I walk away I know I've contributed to the good of the world. There was a day that working in corporate america was a poison to my thoughts. I gave in. I surrendered to capitalism and monetary satisfaction.
In 1998 I took my first position working for an oil & gas company. I wrote a poem about it. I read it for the first time in 12 years and I can still remember the feeling I had like it was yeterday. I will post it after this entry. It makes me sad. I know life happens and you have to support your kids. How is it good for Zachary to see me not happy with my choices in life or not seeing me stick to what I believe in. It makes me sad to think that he will know this side of me. It kind of makes me sick to my stomach.
I want Zachary to stand up for what he believes in and make sacrifices accordingly. Not to give in to societal pressures. I want to him to go after his dreams. I want him to see me do these things and use me as a role model.
A lot to think about lately on this matter :( Lots of soul searching. As usual, I will roll with the punches and make the best choices I can.
Newborn Photographer in Houston
5 years ago
1 comment:
I totally know the way your feeling we have chatted about it before. I felt trapped, didn't care for all the office politics around me, basically miserable. Sigh
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