Just Went...

So, Jenny and I had a discussion many moons ago and she looked at me and said, "what if we get in the car and just went somewhere, anywhere". Since then, my escape description is to "just went". I am ready for a "just went" moment in my life. Sometimes I just want a break. To sit on a beach and vegetate, watch the waves and listen, feel the sand in my toes and the salt bake on my skin. To me that is the ultimate escape. I don't want to give up on my life or any of that, I just want a little escape from everything. Does anyone ever feel that way? Am I weird for this feeling?

When I picture my perfect life this is what I see: I see me in a Jeep, living on the beach, working somewhere I can serve people and be a writer(I am a true servant - I love to serve people, I don't know why) whether it be waiting tables or working non-profit, I want to eat food from the ocean and grow my own vegetables and herbs. I also, want a great entertaining house; not anything fancy but something I LOVE, on the patio have a chiminea or fire pit for cooler nights and cute lights, a grill for all the yummy seafood, somewhere Zachary can around and no one complains and his friends can always come over and play, somewhere I can have all my friends over and sit outside and chat and drink wine. In the mornings I want to be able to sit out on a porch or patio and listen to the ocean and drink my tea or coffee - even when it's cold outside (that's actually my favorite - is the beach in the winter all bundled up), I like to sit in a rocking chair and put my feet on the rail (my fave!), yes...this is what I want.

Then I look at my life and wonder am I doing anything to move towards this? No.
Am I working in the service industry or writing? No. (except for my fun blog)
Do I own a jeep? No.
Do I live near the water? No.
Does Zachary have somewhere to play? No.

So what the heck!?! What am I doing in my life to make me happy? It kinda looks like nothing! I thought I just needed to make a plan for my career move but it looks like I might need to make a plan for my entire life. Woohoo!!! This is the fun stuff in life, right? When you get to make changes :)

So, I definitely need to "just went" whether it's for a weekend or even a day but it's time to get this ball rolling...